Apparently not everything has a map to guide you, nor a compass to point where you should head for. All there is though is your choice and your faith.

In life, you either stay where you are or give yourself the opportunity to show what you can do, to let yourself commit mistakes and to learn from them and to avoid them.
Life doesn't guarantee us any safe destination to be in, but life takes us to places we can travel to, stay on for quite awhile, and to leave when things get pretty rocky.
We can, and eventually, will get lost on most days. We may also find ourselves following a path we once thought was right, or we may also be going with the flow without thinking if it's really meant for us or not.
Sometimes, we insist too much that what we know is right, and what we want is what we need. We make ourselves believe that what we choose in life is everything we are meant to live for.
I believe that we are not expected to be fearless, nevertheless, we are expected to be brave enough to face what lies ahead of us and to fight for what we stand for.But being 'lost' is always just our choice.  We can always walk forward to a better, if not the right path.

On most days, I swear I could feel your skinny arm pressed beside my dry skin.
But you keep me warm despite the lack of intimacy due to a limit in time.
The sarcasm your wide smile paints can get people mad, but I'm pretty sure I'm mad for it.

On most days, I don't think of you. But you're always at the back of my mind.
I may forget the things I think about each day, but I will never forget the ones that are just there ever since.

On most days, I can watch the years we've shared over and over again.
But it never gets old, like the ones that can both make you laugh and cry,
and the ones you already know the endings, yet you still watch them and feel like it's the first time.
I can write a book about those moments, and I'd write every copy of them and not get tired.

On most days, I wish those were the numbered days I get to be with you.
days where I couldn't keep myself from listening to your unappealing laugh.
between the spontaneous increasing of your voice and the beat it creates at every end,
I could just slide myself in them and rest my weary head.

On most days, you're here.
Underneath the darkness when my eyes shut
behind every melody of a favorite song
and inside every curve my lips make.
Because on most days, I am still in love. And on all days, I am in love.

Minsan mahirap umusad o tumigil, kapag hindi mo alam kung hanggang saan ka lang ba talaga dapat.



Parang pag sa dagat. Wala ka naman makikitang malaking marka o paalala na "hanggang dyan ka lang" o "ito na ang dulo".

Siguro ayos lang naman na ginagawa mo yung kaya mong gawin para mahakbangan yung iniisip ng iba na limitasyon mo. Pero minsan mahirap din yung pilit ka ng pilit, hindi na pala talaga pwede.

Bibo ka, e. Gusto mo tuklasin pa kung ano mang na sa dulo. Kaso may mga bagay talaga na pag pinilit mo o kinulit mong gawin, nagmumukha ka nang bobo sa huli.

Pero sana nga, no. Lahat na lang ng bagay na hindi na kailangan o hindi talaga pwedeng puntahan e may nakalagay nang babala.

Kahit manakot na lang din sila, wag ka lang mapaisip na subukan..

"sige ka, may multo dito. hahabulin ka."



- Ganun din naman mangyayari, diba? Hahabulin ka ng multo. Multo mo, siguro. O nang kung ano mang nakalakip na parusa o sakit na pwede mong maranasan dahil sa pagpilit.

Pero syempre, pangit din naman yung pagsisihan mo yung bagay na ginusto mong gawin.  

"Ginusto mo yan eh, diba? Panindigan mo, ha?"

Tsaka siguro naman e kahit papaano, natuwa ka sa ginawa mo o sa desisyon mo. Siguro kahit kaonti, eh may saya naman itong naidulot sayo. Kahit saglit, oks narin.

Pangit din naman kasi yung magsisisi ka tapos malulugmok ka, tapos parang buong buhay mo nasira dahil lang sa isang bagay na ikaw din naman may pakana. (syempre maliban na lang sa pagpapakamatay o pagddroga. eh malamang, masisira nga talaga buhay mo nun kaya, ewan. engot mo lang siguro)

Pero hindi nga. Kahit minsan ba, nag tanong ka kahit tungkol sa simpleng bagay ng "hanggang san lang ba ko pwede?" o "Titigil na ba ako?"



Mas mahirap bang magtanong, o mas mahirap panindigan yung desisyon mo hanggang sa parte na kailangan mo nang harapin ang resulta?

Confused.
Of course not everything's got a signage to either warn or lead you to where you should go or be in. That's too much for spoon feeding. But sometimes you just can't comprehend the confusion of it all, that you just stop and wish blinking signage's like the ones in Vegas would lead you to where you ought to be; "this way!", or that your personal Gretel would have left a trail of bread crumbs on the floor to remind you that wherever it's leading, is not a good idea for a destination.
I need time for myself. I need to think things through more.
I need to find myself.